"A year" - the first Anniversary of Dad's death is in three days.
This explains why I'm so 'angry' these days - deep automation. Last
year at this 'time', I was imprisoned, and I Failed Dad.
It's 'funny' - it was the same for both Dad and me with respect to
Mom's death in '85.
Each year, as September 30 drew near, we'd both become
The changing of the seasons 'whispered' to us with respect to all
that Mom was to us, and missing-her just welled-up within us.
Now, I'm alone with both Spring and Fall remembrances. Dad's way, and
my way, is to 'become steeled' in the midst of such - hence, my
recent 'bearing' in the NG.
It's like being stuck in a vice - no escape - the work on one side,
the compounded-Sorrow on the other.
I'm not 'apologizing' - just thought it'd be best to explain why I'll
either be 'out of it'. or 'on-fire', for a while - and then I've got
to go live in my car :-|
Good grief! This 'Life' as a 'worker-bee\lab-rat' hybrid Sucks.
And, on top of it all, I've not been able to secure the understanding
for the Children?
"KP-PC" <k.p.collins at worldnet.att.net%remove%> wrote in message
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| I've told my Brothers that I will vacate Dad's house before 1 May.
| They've given me this year, and I'm Grateful to them.
|| [Looks like I won't get to see who "The Bachelor" chooses ["darn!"
|| If there's anyone who willing to help me find a way to earn room &
| board nearby a good Library, please do not delay.