Bennet - someone who knew very little about my disability and worked
out an answer. Not necessarily the correct answer. Entertain me with
This reasoning begs more questions than it answers. How open-minded
are you to accept this way of thinking. You are in the position of
authority to express to your colleagues if there is any substance my
The brain can't handle brain damage too well because in the past
people who had brain injuries didn't evolve in unison with their
respirators! The chicken and the egg could survive by themselves as
long as there were other chickens and eggs. If I had been injured 60
years ago, my evolution would have ended..... in a world of 6 billion
I am of little consequence....
WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS: I should've known not to damage the brain in the
Life - the unattainable expectation to be whole by being half?
X or Y chromosome!!
"Bring on parallel existences"
Males are dying to be sperms - females are dying to become eggs
..... to be continued - with retrospective foresight......
(Shit happens but life goes on..)
Please feel free to write to me:
13 Aries Court
Rockingham Park 6168
Initial telephone contact can be made on (08) 9527 6143. I plan on
going to Europe for several months around May, June 1999. My email
address is: djwest at hotmail.com I will be checking my email once a
Doctors with firmly entrench ideas may hinder the acceptance of my
ideas. I am over the fear of being ridiculed for putting forward such
radical ideas. Everything I have said is well thought out from where
The Latest (unedited thoughts)
My mind has developed - right brain controls the one side of the body
& left brain opposite side. (There is no left and right in nature.) So
the brain had to regress itself to itself to the innate understanding
of the original split? Is this the reason why I didn't know my right
from my left? How HI's suffer this left/right deficiency?
If your ancestors were alcoholics you can make an informed decision
based on how they handle their alcoholism. The female reproductive
system is much more complex than the male. The males task was
primarily to gather food for his family. Now he works to pay for the
food for the family and the female is does the job which her
circumstances dictate - same for the male!
The delta being the difference between the two curves ie the intended
movement and the intended sensation vs movement. Differences in delta
are influenced by every by every other delta at the time. Is the
mathematical version of our existence becoming any clearer?
Dream were about trying to quantify complete very complex tasks before
they were started when a task takes time. Dreams were about doing
things yesterday that would only ever done today. Hereditary from
generations before. Worrying about completing tasks needlessly
because chaos is a governing factor.
People of similar disposition all have an instinct for goals within
their situational options. If I can, I will - if I can get away with
it, even better. Is that really any different - in essence - to trying
to become half by become whole. In death you have the foresight to be
thought of retrospectively.
As individuals generally don't make the same mistake twice.
Like wagging his tail - doing something productive that takes effort
while subconsciously doing something habitual. Like my increased
ability to notice my shoe laces while failing badly in an attempt to
use my hand. Doing positive things subconsciously is helping repair
/regenerate other areas. A happy dog is a happy dog. Young at heart
dogs know no better or do they? Evolution to your environment with
your best means. Call this tact on a human level. Where there's a will
there's a way and a better way still in parallel existence.
Is the HIV virus existent all because of the immune system's lack of
knowledge because of over prescription of antibiotics. RA on a viral
level? On an animal level like a dog wagging its tail because its sad
- it just doesn't happen!
Life is and was meant to happen because it could.. amino acids, carbon
molecule and a lightning strike. Carbon based life form. Plants are
different - I don't know enough about that; I'm not willing to learn
In the Beginning
Below is a copy of the letter I was distributing to specialists,
therapists and doctors worldwide. It seems I was asking a complex
question that needed so much more than a simple answer.
* * * *
I would be very interested in learning anything more about my
hemiplegia - particularly any suggestions from the medical profession.
Alternatively, I would like to hear from people who are in a similar
position to myself.
In September, 1984 and at the age of 17, I had a car accident in which
I suffered a right hemiplegia. The final result being a partial loss
of the dexterous use of my right hand and arm. The freedom of use is
restricted in the leg.
Hand:- very spastic its only real use is for grasping objects.
Wrist: its usual position is fully extended with approx 15ø voluntary
flexion - this movement is of
little or no functional use.
Fore-arm: a difficulty moving to a supinated position.
Elbow: a full range of voluntary flexion and extension but smooth
movement is restricted to resistive forces.
Shoulder: comparatively good
Leg: freedom of movement is restricted
The sensation is normal down my right side. It is also interesting to
note that my right side totally relaxes whilst asleep
A report written upon discharge from hospital concluded that I had
received a deep intra-cerebral haematoma. Quoting the report: "C.T.
Scans showed an area of haemorrhage in the left thalamus surrounded by
oedema. There were separate areas of punctate haemorrhage, more
superiorly placed within the same hemisphere and the ventricular
system was quite small. Repeat CAT scans showed the haematoma to be
resolving and there was a moderately large infarct on the left
internal capsule with encroachment upon the left thalamus at the site
of the previously described haematoma."
A report written by a rehabilitation doctor 6 months after the
accident said: The residua from this accident are in the form of
bilateral upper motor neurone lesions affecting all four limbs, with
increased tone, positive Hoffmann and extensor Babinski signs. The
right side is by far the worst and this is his dominant side
In April, 1985, as an inpatient of the Royal Perth Rehabilitation
Hospital, I was expected to swim in the hydrotherapy pool. I had lost
all of my confidence in water (this being a side-effect of the
accident) and I was literally terrified of the thought of my head
being submerged in water. When the time came to swim, panic set in and
both my arms and hands started the motions of "dog-paddle".
This function of my right arm was caused by - according to my
instincts - a life-threatening situation and only lasted until I
realised that I wasn't going to drown. I couldn't understand why I
wasn't able to swim or even put my head underwater (without breathing
in) especially when being confident in water was of second nature
before the accident.
Many months were spent trying regain my confidence in water and now, I
would only panic if I was actually drowning. Being confident in water
meant more to me than having the temporary use of my right arm. I have
since taken up waterskiing and am sufficiently confident enough in
water albeit with the aid of a life-jacket! To this day, I still
cannot put my head underwater and be assured I won't swallow any
On the rarest of occasions, from impulse and for an instant, my right
hand and arm have displayed reflex-action type movements. eg. stopping
a glass jar from falling off a shelf, jumping when startled, and my
whole arm has withdrawn my hand from painful situations. I would have
doubts, though, about these rare instances leading to anything, if not
for the day in the hydrotherapy pool.
Regrettably, there were no residual effects resulting from these
experiences. It just seems very irregular that my arm and hand have
the potential to function normally but can only do so in extreme
It has been 12 years since the accident and during this time, I have
seen many specialists. A physiotherapist found that by constant and
vigorous shaking of the fingers and hand made them relax. My
physiotherapist has also tried interferential treatment on the right
forearm. This didn't have the desired effect and for the time that it
was being tried, increased my hand and finger's spasticity. Soon
after the accident my physiotherapist in hospital tried limited
biofeedback but this too was also unrewarding.
Prior to being discharged from hospital in 1985, I had a condition
known as "drop-foot" and tenotomies were performed on both Achilles
tendons Plus, my right forearm was flexed against my throat so a
tendon release was also performed. In the years since being
discharged, I had several minor orthopaedic operations to improve my
function. Not being critical to this kind of treatment but it has
inherent limitations in that it can only do so much.
Neurologists and Doctors have tried many drugs including: Sinemet-M,
Valium, Baclofen, Rivitrol, Tegretol, Artane and Epilim. Most of these
drugs were intended to reduce spasticity.
The Doctors involved with prescribing Sinemet-M explained the drug is
usually prescribed for people who suffer from Parkinson's disease.
Sinemet occurs naturally in the brain but it sometimes lacks the drug.
Two symptoms of this deficiency are the relaxation of the spastic
limb(s) whilst asleep and the spastic limb(s) being able to move more
readily against resistance. In my case, these symptoms were true and
since the nature of my head-injury was uncertain, it was possible that
Sinemet-M may help.
At any rate, Epilim was the only agent that seemed to help and I am
now taking a daily dosage of 3 x 500mg. Although Epilim hasn't
affected my hand and arm's usefulness, it has however, lessened the
spasticity of my right side thus making it more comfortable for me. My
Neurologist said that relaxation of my right side was the maximum
benefit of trying all the drugs and agents because the brain was
affected in the accident.
In the past, I have also seen a hypnotherapist. It was my theory that
if I could be induced into a panic situation - under hypnosis - then,
I could not see any problem in getting my hand and arm to "work". If
my hand and arm had performed differently under certain circumstances,
then prolonging the effects into everyday situations might be
possible. I asked a rehabilitation doctor about hypnotherapy. He said:
'He would have to be a good hypnotist!'. Realistically, I could see
About a year later I asked my GP if I could be referred to a
hypnotherapist. He had no hesitation in obliging me because he said
that he was going to refer me anyway. I was relieved - he took me
Among other things, the hypnotherapist tried regression - taking me
back with hypnosis to the hydrotherapy pool. This didn't work although
he only tried because I wanted him to. In summary, I was not surprised
at the failure of hypnotherapy but was somewhat annoyed with the
hypnotherapist's pessimistic attitude. It was like all things: if I
didn't try, I would never know.
I initially thought it was the panic involved with my head going
underwater that made my hand and arm function. However, in September,
1988, to try and arouse the panic situation, I went skydiving - Deluxe
We tried free-falling from 10,000ft at 120mph, for 45 seconds by
firstly doing two forward rolls. This didn't work and not too
disappointingly either. To be quite honest, I was doing it just for
the thrill with an ulterior motive in mind; I'll be the first to admit
that my methods were a little excessive but by all accounts, it was
feasible. All the exercise did accomplish was to make me feel
decidedly ill and quite arguably, it was the wrong way to approach the