"kenneth collins" <kenneth.p.collins at worldnet.att.net> wrote in message
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| "kenneth collins" <kenneth.p.collins at worldnet.att.net> wrote in message
| news:Lc2pe.291602$cg1.136494 at bgtnsc04-news.ops.worldnet.att.net...|| "kenneth collins" <kenneth.p.collins at worldnet.att.net> wrote in message
|| news:%1Roe.289511$cg1.284812 at bgtnsc04-news.ops.worldnet.att.net...||| [...]
||||| I am in Serious Need of Medical
||| attention.
||| [...]
|| [...]
|| Maybe it's just "stress" -- because
| I Loathe, so much, doing the stuff
| I'm doing, =in the 'way' I'm having
| to do it=.
I'm not sure, though.
When I drink, I'm never sure, in-
creasingly, whether or not I'll be
able to swallow.
This comes and goes, and there's
usually an environmental correlate.
It's gotten Severe, recently, and I
was able to trace that back to a
bad batch of tobacco that I'd pur-
chased -- left a "metallic" taste on
my tongue.
I've been wanting to quit smoking
for more than two 'decades' [have
sensed "danger" for that long], but
I've also been trying to "wait", to
go through "withdrawal", because
"any day, now, someone'll acknow-
ledge NDT or TH, and I need to
be ready when that happens [not
going through withdrawal]".
And, so, one 'day' has led into the
next, with this stuff that I've known
I should do for myself being "put-off".
I'd really Like to be able to "just
Live".
You know?
ken [k. p. collins]
